So many years studying to work, but how little I learned about who I was.
I remember as if it were yesterday the following coaching dynamic that I experienced as a coachee:
"Who are you?" My coach Marta asks me
"I'm Elsa." I answered
"Who are you?" Marta asks me again.
I knew that Marta (my coach) had listened to me and then I realized that she expected another response from me and I said: “I am Elsa, mother of three children”.
"Who are you?" Marta asks me again, looking me in the eye.
That third question was beginning to bother me, but I decided to answer the first thing that came to mind: “I am Elsa, a mother of three children and I am an engineer”.
"Who are you?" He asks me again seriously, looking into my eyes without saying a word.
Ufff that fourth question came to my heart like a spear, now writing it I remember it and I still feel the pain that was inside me. I was wondering who am I? but who am i? And, I decided to answer: “I am a person who has fought all his life to become someone, and now I don't know who I am”.
"Who are you?" Marta asks looking me in the eyes.
Already with tears in my eyes I answer: "A good person who has dreams and hopes to create a better world."
"Who are you?" Marta asks me again with a warmer tone.
And I, entering my interior, tell him: “I am Elsa, a person who has had a passion for personal development and emotional intelligence since she was very little and who wants to fight to help people find happiness within themselves (not in material things or in the recognition of others ). I am a person who wants to fight so that everyone knows that they are unique and that they have a lot to contribute to this world. I am a person who believes in a better world and will do my best to create it”.
I remember the thrill of relief that I felt after finally being able to define who I was. But I also felt fear, because now a new path was coming for me. A way away from the comfort zone. But he was also aware that out of the comfort zone magic happens.
At that time, she was working as an engineer in a multinational company with a position of responsibility with sales objectives for technology and data equipment. I remember thinking that I felt like I was on a high-speed train to a destination I didn't know, that I hadn't chosen.. And I felt many times that I was looking out the window of that train and thinking: “what would have happened if I had taken another train?” I did not see the possibility of getting off the train, because it had no stops and it was going too fast and I had the feeling that if I jumped off the train it could hurt me.
So my personal job was to fill myself with my inner strength that made a kind of padded armor to be able to jump off the train and protect myself from the fall.
I remember with such emotion the day they helped me jump off the train. I knew that it could be dangerous for me, I would no longer be safe on a train that gave me what I needed, but I was tremendously excited to jump, to find the train that would take me to the destination I really wanted: Expand the work of self-knowledge and emotional intelligence of people, to make known the power within us, so that there is more peace and happiness in this world.
Do you know something? I just realized, while I'm writing, something very important. I feel that every part of the way of the whole route that this new train is doing is my destiny. I feel that every day I am reaching the destination that I want, it is not a destination of professional success, it is a destiny of personal success, it is a destiny of being proud of myself, of feeling satisfied with who I am and what I do to contribute to this world to make a better world.
It hasn't been easy, it's not easy with three children launch out of the comfort zone looking for magic, but it is possible. With a lot of work and effort that is full of passion and desire it is possible. When you work what you like and feel that you can add value to this world, your personal life converges with your work life, and that is the magic.
